Monday, December 22, 2008

Annual shut-down

*yawns* This is my annual shut-down time starting off!

And at the end of about six weeks of coughing, I am sure looking forward to it!

This Wednesday I'm going home to Penang. Looking soooooooo forward to it.

Yesterday Avis and I did a marathon. First, we were in church for Sunday service. I was as usual at the LCD ... and dis was not a good week, ppls! Enuff said! Those involved know why, and those not involved do not need to knows.

As it was I was on high nerves because Uncle Sam told me that he couldn't come for the Christmas Hospital Visitation. I guess I was really worn out trying to cope with work and having to get all e stuff done at the same time plus volunteer work because it was really hard for me to get my equilibrium after that.

Then the LCD incident.... oh mahns.... I kept kicking myself so I wouldn't start howling!

So a few rushing around last-minute thingies to get the Christmas Hospital Visitation and the Undercover Project stuff in order and we were ready to go! Chinese Church was the biggest contingent. Bless their hearts - they have hearts full of love for the suffering and unreached.

We went to the hospital and I was in the kidney failure ward. The mothers talked and talked .... you could see how tense and tired they were with all the worry....

We left there and picked up quick bites and drinks of orange crush from Mc.D's and then went to church to drop off those NOT going for the Undercover Project delivery.

When we got to Ti-Ratana we gave them the underwear we'd collected and the books that Uncle Sam had donated. Then we had a great time wandering around and talking to the kids.

After that we dropped back more people and after Unc. Paul and Auntie Vivien gave us a wonderful dinner (*hugs*!) we went off for volunteer work.

Phew-sies! All in all a great wrap-up to the year, but I'm thankful for a quiet Christmas coming up! I know there are Christmas outings and parties planned and New Year outings etc. but I'm ready to lie flat on my bed and catch up on some nonsensical reading ... and more importantly, just some prayer time.

I really want to know where 2009 is going. I feel so loved and assured now that I'm not somewhere out of church hanging by a thread all by myself, but part of the church in a ministry called by God. (Thanks Pst Bee Leng *huggles*) But where the direction is that missions dept is going, I have no idea. What I'm supposed to do in the volunteer work that I do, I have no idea. Nor in my work, my friends etc.

So it's going to be a quiet time of seeking God and resting my head so that I can look towards Him without a lot of worries and pre-occupations.

See you all next week!

St Francis of Assisi

Whilst in Italy, I visited Assisi. It was a quiet little town with a big monastery on a slope. I forgot all about it until today I was just thinking about the prayer of St Francis...

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Thought about it because... sometimes I get frustrated when "Person A so totally doesn't understand me." But I think that's beside the point, isn't it? The whole point is, do I try to understand them?

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

C'est moi!

The Protector

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

From Wikipedia:-
INFJs are conscientious and value-driven. They seek meaning in relationships, ideas, and events, with an eye toward better understanding themselves and others. Using their intuitive skills, they develop a clear vision, which they then execute decisively to better the lives of others. Like their INTJ counterparts, INFJs regard problems as opportunities to design and implement creative solutions.

INFJs are quiet, private individuals who prefer to exercise their influence behind the scenes. Although very independent, INFJs are intensely interested in the well-being of others. INFJs prefer one-on-one relationships to large groups. Sensitive and complex, they are adept at understanding complicated issues and driven to resolve differences in a cooperative and creative manner.

Accounting for 1–3% of the population, INFJs have a rich, vivid inner life, which they may be reluctant to share with those around them. Nevertheless, they are congenial in their interactions, and perceptive of the emotions of others. Generally well-liked by their peers, they may often be considered close friends and confidants by most other types. However, they are guarded in expressing their own feelings, especially to new people, and so tend to establish close relationships slowly. INFJs tend to be easily hurt, though they may not reveal this except to their closest companions. INFJs may "silently withdraw as a way of setting limits," rather than expressing their wounded feelings. This behavior may leave others confused and upset.

INFJs tend to be sensitive, quiet leaders with a great depth of personality. They are intricately and deeply woven, mysterious, and highly complex, sometimes puzzling even to themselves. They have an orderly view toward the world, but are internally arranged in a complex way that only they could understand. Abstract in communicating, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. With a natural affinity for art, INFJs tend to be creative and easily inspired. Yet they may also do well in the sciences, aided by their intuition.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Exam results

And the results are in!!!! Ta-daaaaaa... I fiiiinnnaaaaalllllllyyyyyy passed! Finito to all ICAEW exams! Phew!

Got my results during the BBQ at YA Camp and yelled loud enough for all the youths around me to hear.

A little bit sad tho that not all my friends got thru, but happy that many of them did. Thank you God!

It's a bit funny, but .... I think I miss my granny the most now when my results are out than any other time. She was so awfully proud of me when I was doing this qualification, and so excited that I had finished all my papers. I know she'd have been thrilled to hear that I passed, and I can just imagine her happy voice talking to me on the phone about it. But... she isn't around anymore.

Y'know, I was very surprised and very touched to find that she left me a locket. My dad and aunt say that that was my granny's most treasured possession. And she attached a little label to it in her own handwriting with my name on it. Can u imagine? I never knew my granny loved me that much.

YA Camp

Ha ha! Have been hopping about blogs reading what everyone says about youth camp. Everyone agrees it was awesome, and it definitely was!

I spent most of it pretty wet, due to a certain amount of ineptitude in pouring water safely from a kettle to a dispenser, but it was all good!

The youths were awesome as usual - one can never be bored around our church youths! They're a loveable crew!

The camp speaker was a friend of our youth leader and he was so all out in preaching the Word. U could see he was someone who had dedicated his life to God and God was using him to pour out into the lives of those around him. The testimonies were awesome! I was especially happy because there were a lot of examples in hospital ministry. Praying that means more ppl will sign up for the children hospital visitation ;> It's so funs, ppls!!!!

The youths were on e high rope and flying fox and it was great to see them so delighted wif it. We had one youth who refused to leave early with his parents until he completed the high rope course. It is sooooooo scarily high, manz. It freaked me out! I was so happy to be down on the ground!

I missed the pond rafting, but I heard three rafts disintegrated or somefing like dat. Ha ha! That means dat my Camp Believe 2007 still holds the record, becos ALL our rafts floated from beginning to end! I am sooooo proud of my orphanage kids!

Missed out on half the skits and songs too, but it is seriously amazing how talented e youths are. God has truly poured out talents into this coming generation to use for His glory! Hey, the best actresses, singers, dancers, artists, craftsmen etc. are in the church, okay!!! Y? Because we are anointed by God for His glory!

Met some new frens, and I have to say, this year's bunch of visitors were so sweet and quiet and good ... it made for a very peaceful, sweet camp, dis year! I thoroughly enjoyed de atmosphere. The less the competition, the more enjoyable the camp, me says! Everyone stays frens!

And I was overjoyed to get a chance to share the gospel wif some of the visitors and especially to watch the other leaders, too, share the gospel. And it was truly awesome to see some of the youths reach out to their relatives. U guys are sooooo cool!

This year was the record - two girls for the clinic, and more medication poured down the throats of the youths then any camp that I've been to before! Good grief! I am so glad God protected everyone from serious illnesses and injury!

And my most fixed memory of camp must be running around getting everyone to finish signing the cards for the advisors, the speakers, Pst Kim and U. Mak..... Phew!

So in summary....

.... I thank God for the camp committee - you guys did an awesome job! I am so proud of you all!

.... I thank God for the camp speaker - you rawk and u went all out! Thanks for making de difference!

.... I thank God for the weather - admit it, u guys, the rain added to the fun of camp! And God sure made sure that the rain didn't come when the youths were playing e fun stuff!

.... I thank God for the privilege of serving - I'm glad I didn't miss out on camp this year, God. Sick or not, camp is too good to miss!

.... I thank God for the messages preached - they spoke to my situation, and they impacted the youths.

.... I thank God for the youths - it is my joy and privilege to see u guys grow year on year! You have all changed so much to become stronger men and women of God, ready to be used by Him for His glory!

.... I thank God for the opportunity to plant seeds and share the toil with the others who are also planting the seeds. May they come to fruition, Lord.

.... I thank God for the chance to just worship - I can't remember worshipping U like that for, like, so so long.

.... I thank God for U. Mak and A. Kim. U guys show us how to live... not just talk and talk, but u walk the walk. I love you!

Most of all, I thank You God. You made all the difference. And I love YOU most of all.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Rumah Sayangan outing

Oh isn't she the sweetest? This little girl was clinging to my arm most of the trip with the Rumah Sayangan children to Sg. Chongkak.

Little S was feeling bus sick after a pretty rollicky journey. She is so quiet she wouldn't tell us what is wrong... just overflowed with tears. She went to the side with a housemother and the next thing we knew she was bawling becos the Tiger Balm that the housemother gave her to make her feel better went into her eyes! Oh poor wee girl!

So for the rest of the day she hung on to my arm when eating.... going to the washroom.... walking around the campsite... and uh oh! ... when going in the v. cold river....

So now I'm hacking away ... pain in me right chest... but it was worth it! I had a wonderful time!