Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Sharing

It feels so strange to share my dream with a total stranger, but... what have I got to lose?

I emailed to M from PSTC... never met her, though we communicated thru email when I was organizing the sessions under the Keeping Me Safe program for the orphanage Homes. They are the only charity working with sexually abused children.

I really need her advice and know-how... she set up PSTC after all... and if we can work together, I believe the Centre I want to build will benefit more children.

*praying hard* now!

Hate

The hating never ends.... Shocked and horrified at the stones that are being thrown at CHC and my pastors... It literally makes me sick to the stomach.

Last weekend, I was with a group of committed, strong, loving people who believe in making a difference and who actually take action to see the world become a better place as people hope once again.

Why can't the world be this way?

I asked myself on my board, "Why should I care?". I have no answer for that... I only know that I do, and so do a lot of people. God bless us who do, for the world is cruel!

P.S. I think it's just me >.< Why must I ALWAYS be on the controversial side? Why can't I for once just be mainstream? Why must I always root for the underdog and the persecuted and the unpopular? >.< Dear Lord Almighty, why on earth am I me?!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Live My Dreams


It sounds crazy, but... what the heck! I only have one life to live!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Breaking the Board

Oh shoot... I forgot until just now that if CV is next week, that means annual Breaking the Board time is also next week. And considering my last post, I'm getting serious hives about it!!!!!! HALLLPPPPPP!!!!

Unfulfilled dreams

Last weekend I finally popped back home for the weekend. It's been a long time since I've gone back to Penang... I always protest that I'm too busy. My last visit was in Chinese New Year and that was just until the 3rd day before I positively insisted that I must return to KL.

When nattering to a friend about how long it'd been since I'd gone home, he said something pretty poignant about how it was no surprise and that being busy was a method I used to avoid.

I was struck dumb for a while. And I thought a bit about that... What was I avoiding?

I don't know why at that point my dream came to my mind...

It seems ridiculous because really, others would say that I AM living my dream in the work that I do with orphanage youths and at-risk youths. But only I know that I have yet to strike the head on my dream... solidifying it and bringing it to reality.

And why? I don't know. Once upon a time I thought that it was because it wasn't my dream anymore, but when I check and check myself I realise that this dream means something to me, and I will never rest till I bring it to reality.

Then why the hesitance? Why can't I move forward? What's holding me back?

I know there's dollops of fear of failure there, but that hasn't stopped me before. I'm a bull-headed chick!

So what's going on I wonder?

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

My thoughts on the Expedition...

It was an incredible experience... Above and beyond what I had expected. It wasn't the 'activities'... It was just that 'magic' that somehow appeared and glowed brighter and brighter with the love and trust and bonding that grew amongst the youths... Amongst youths and volunteers...

I just read the notes from my Affirmation Envelope... The sweet words that speak of a difference made when I did not know it...

And I'm thinking today of one precious youth in particular today who asked me, "Can you be my mother?" How do you answer a question like that? How do you break a heart that has already been broken too many times?

God grant me wisdom...

Expedition Agape Malaysia 2012 - The Expedition

Expedition Agape Malaysia 2012 - Before Expedition