We sang this in church last Sunday. Much to my surprise, tears came to my eyes.
The words that stirred my heart the most were these:-
"So let go my soul and trust in Him The waves and wind still know His name"
I wondered where the tears were coming from, and I realised that they were tears left over from the strain of organizing EA.
It's something that only another Founder of a charity can understand. There are tears that you cannot cry in front of the people you are leading. There are fears you can never express to your team. Instead, you must always look confident and be the support of the others. I had one volunteer who was really temperamental during the Expedition; I have to be that person's support and patiently guide her through the tantrums. There are times when things go wrong, and the one who must give the assurance that everything will turn out okay, is the Founder. There are people who don't do the work they are allocated, and the Founder must take up the slack.
So the only shoulder that I can cry on is God's. No one else hears the tears, the desperate whispers when I lack faith, the cries of frustration and hurt when volunteers are deliberately hurtful, the feelings of guilt when I take too much time out of what should be family time and friends time just so I can handle things with the charity... no one but You. And God reminded me, He is always there
Verse 1 Grander earth has quaked before Moved by the sound of His voice Seas that are shaken and stirred Can be calmed and broken for my regard
Chorus Through it all, through it all My eyes are on You Through it all, through it all It is well
Through it all, through it all My eyes are on You It is well with me
Verse 2 Far be it from me to not believe Even when my eyes can't see
And this mountain that's in front of me Will be thrown into the midst of the sea
Bridge So let go my soul and trust in Him The waves and wind still know His name
It is well with my soul It is well with my soul It is well with my soul It is well with my soul