Friday, January 20, 2017

Inner Vow

I have a new inner vow to add - Never ever trust pastors. Well, I could add in church staff considering what happened with F, but I think that's not fair to cool church staff like Z and C.

It's been a very rough January. Shelter got back to me AFTER the work year had started to inform me that they do not want me back. Christian organization, they are. I had horrid itchy spots break out all over my body. I reported a case of child abuse and I've heard nothing back from JKM. A very strange woman wrote a nasty comment on my FB (I don't know her!) calling me a 'dumb bitch'.

Most of all, I had the stupidity to actually talk to a pastor about my concerns. Dumb me. The whole thing blew up in my face. I will never talk to a pastor in confidence ever again.

All I have in my life is God, but now church has become scary and messy. I can't even find a cell group, and after this mess, it is hard to find one, and to find the courage to try.

God, Your words to me were, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." But God, if that is true, why this mess God?